just a crush…

butterflies.

a feeling i’ve missed for so long yet feared to ever feel again.

a feeling that makes me feel alive but scares me endlessly inside.

i didn't want to fall for you.

i didn't want to want you.

i didn't want you to want me.

except...i do.

i want to fall for you.

i want to want you.

i want you to want me.

i know i'm not making sense.

and that maybe i’m asking too much.

i just feel this rush.

every time you walk by.

i just have a crush.

but i'm too afraid to say hi.

feelings will fade.

and butterflies will fly.

at least that’s what i tell myself.

because the thought of rejection just hurts too damn much.

it’s just a silly crush…

just a silly crush…

a silly crush...

i think.